BAP's BABY?
POSTED ON Rabu, 25 Desember 2013 AT 04.05 \\
I do know their feeling.
when they said that they arent an ELF, but they stan Super Junior.

at first, i thought that they were so cruel.
what's wrong with them?
they dont love SJ truthfully.
and I kinda hate them.

but now,
I do know their feeling.
because Im in the same boat as them.
but not with my oppars ofc.

I'm an ELF.
and hopefully will always be :)
I love Super Junior.
and I support them and love them with all of my heart<3

what I want to talk about is with..... B.A.P
my favorite rookies. and will always be.

the first time I saw them, was when I download their debut mv, warrior, in the same time I download exo's first mv, what is love.
at that time, my full attention was with exo, and I followed them from the start. the exact opposite with bap.
I did know Yongguk's song with Yoseob, 
I watched his mv. I listened to his song. and just so so.
I did know to about Bang&Zelo's never give up.
and at that time, 
I kinda went crazy when I knew that Zelo is 96line.
it gave me a lot of shocked.
and I was srzly insane.
I didnt know that Im already that old. /sobs/
but, okay, I admit.
I dont like Bang&Zelo's song. and I deleted it.
I even download their mv later, but I deleted it again.
and I kinda dont remember If I already download that MV again or not.
if not, I really have to download it because there is Bang Yongguk. and I love him. lol. and I love their song too<333 eventho there is their sunbae-nim that I prefer dont see.

okay, back to point,
I already told you guys, when I download bap and exo's first mv,
I prefer warrior so much right?
and I kinda had my first love at Bang Yongguk. (I re-read my post again. lol. AND IM SURPRISED!)
his voice.
oh god his voice!
Im not surprise that I was falling for his voice at that time because, you can say that it still the main reason why i love him now.
lol.
and their performance.
I really cant compare it to exo's first mv because it way more different but i love it.
i love warrior mv.
and bap got me from that time.
I knew it.

then, 
stan. I stan them?
okay. 
I do stan them.
or did?
I already... and still think about it,
Acy said that If I said that I love BAP, why couldnt I call my self a baby?
Baby.... that's bap's fan.
Im Yongguk's baby.
oh yes.
I do :)
Im their fan.
I do love them.
but srzly.............
it's hard.
it's really hard to call yourself someone fan.
it's not that easy.

with Super Junior, that's different.
when I first started to know them, like them, love them,
I already knew and I decided that I was an ELF.
and I dont any regret till know.

with others?
I never think about it.
actually, I once called myself a Shawol.
but I thought I dont deserve to be called a shawol.
because... I know i wasnt that care to them.
there was just Taemin.
and now,
There is still Taemin that I love in SHINee,
the others?
I just like them equally :)
and with SHINee.
i like them.
I love them.
but I know that I dont deserve to be called a Shawol.
I felt that I did something bad to them.
and let just say that Im traumatized? 
till like this.

but with bap.
god.
this is different.
i think, if you just "stan" them, it's like you just like on of their member.
if you're trully a fan,
you love them.
like, all of them.


I love Bang Yongguk.
oh god you do know how i really. madly. in love with him.
I love Kim Himchan too.
I love him for the longest.
and I still love him now.
Jung Daehyun,
I'll forever love him because he is my same age chingu<3
Yoo Youngjae.
.
..
at first I dont like him,  like I hate him. and I really want to punch his face badly
and now?
i dont know, because He's Daehyun's bff?
so, if daehyun like him, it's like... i have to.
and I do like him now.
Moon Jongup.
I dont know...
oh I dont know.
he's unique.
there's something about him that 's different from the others.
and I never tired to say this but,
I dont know that he's THAT funny.
LMAO.
Choi Junhoong.
the 96line maknae.
there are already a lot of worse than him now.
97line. 99line. 2000line maybe?
and I dont want to mention smrookies. no.
I still remember how devastated I was when I knew that he is 96line.
and I still think that he's brilliant.
and hope,
that you'll stop growing Zelo-ah XD

say,
can I say that I'm a BABY now?

because...
BABY seems so special in BAP's eyes.
they are.
BAP treat them like a princess.
they love them dearly.
god.
BABY seems so precious to BAP.
and I want to be like that too.

I just hope that It not just momentary.
Im serious when I said that I wanted to support them,
that they already got my attention,
not just from last month. this month.
but from the start.
from the very first time I saw them.
They already got my attention.
they already got me.

say,
they are special.
there are really something about them that make me that different from the others.
beside the facts that they were all once blonde.
oh twice ;)
and oh god,
they are so fierce.
their song. it's different.
they are different.

srzly...
this is this hard.
........... and you dont believe it.
when I typed "this is this hard." I just opened some BAP's blog,
AND THERE IS MY OPPARS SONG!
SUPER JUNIOR SONG!
and Im still listening to it :")
it's No Other.
God!
is this your guidance?


no. ofc not.
eventho I call myself a BABY, I wont leave my oppa.
I cant.
I'm still an ELF.
I know it.
and I love and will always love my Super Junior oppars. 

oh btw-
their introduction is my second favorite after SJ oppars ;)


.......................
i love them.
I really do love them.
but this is hard, shiet.
I already talk too much.
and.... im still confused.
.
..
...
it still need time I think.

but Goddddd!
you do know how Im crazy about them these days
;;aaaaaaaaaa;;

I said that I knew it by my heart.
what if I dont need time, or date to know that Im a BABY?
what if....
that I already become a BABY, BAP's BABY all these time?
I dont know.
I really dont know. and I need help :(
but srzly I lov-
IM IN LOVE WITH THEM!